so i got the first of what i can only imagine will be years of pointed verbal attacks (?) accusations (?) the other day.
the gist of it is that i'm a rubbish mummy. lilah doesn't want to live with us, she wants to live with her friend because her mummy is such a much better mummy. i only ever do mean things. i never do fun things. and on, and on, and on...
i tried not to rise to it -- because you're not supposed to. you're the grown up, you know. you have the maturity not to retaliate to a 4 year old.
so i didn't. i kept saying that's fine. i will always love you, even if you don't like me.
because it was one of those days where the whole afternoon was a long, extended play date, and there was sun and sweet treats involved, the twiredness was in full swing, and the slough of abuse coming out of lilah's mouth was astonishingly articulate. i did have to keep reminding myself that she was only 4 years old...
but i did think i might have had another 8 years or so before this was going to start happening. oh well, the way things are going, i should have expected it!
anyway, after she fell asleep, i spent the night on the couch all curled up. my stomach was knotted. i felt weak. and i didn't know how to shake it off.
mums out there: this point in your relationship with your child sucks. if anyone who has been through this knows a better way of dealing with this ... because i know it's going to happen again ... i'm all ears.
28 May 2012
thank you, michael stipe
somehow, we flew through the whole "some girls love girls and some boys love boys" conversation in under a minute this weekend.
she's been rocking out to Stand by REM, and was flipping through the liner notes, and when she came to the picture of Michael Stipe, she asked if he was married and i said, yes, i believe. he's married to a boy.
yes, lilah said. because some girls love girls and some boys love boys.
easy peasy.
(stand in the place where you live / now face north / think about direction wonder why you haven't now)
27 May 2012
lilah and lucy
these girls are cousins
lucy is steven's half-sister's daughter
it is such a shame we only see them once every few years
they had a great time together
a date with some ice cream
going out for ice cream
behind lilah is the Glasgow Gaelic School
(very nearly her primary school, but we decided against it at the last minute)
freya and lilah
both 8 september girls
lilah.
raspberry ripple ice cream.
waffle cone.
and a chocolate flake.
(in an american-style diner)
heaven.
need i say more?
24 May 2012
lilah outside
enjoying the weather
(not yet cooking in her boots)
it has been absolutely glorious here in glasgow this week
ah, the sun does good things to the soul
21 May 2012
5 May 2012
what Lilah is listening to now
no doubt : the singles : 1992 - 2003
favourites : just a girl, it's my life, hella good
adam and the ants : kings of the wild frontier
favourites : dog eat dog, ants invasion, kings of the wild frontier
green day : american idiot
favourites : american idiot, holiday (she plays it because its my fav, bless her)
but her ALL TIME fav on this record is : boulevard of broken dreams
(or, as lilah says it : walking on the road)
is lilah 4? or 14?
and if she's listening to these records now... what kind of music will she like when she is 14?
oh, i'm so excited.
4 May 2012
mediterranean light
this is the church we see from the living room windows
it's not a church now, it has been converted to flats
but it is still pretty, especially with the cherry trees out front
somehow, the light became all mediterranean for a few minutes
and we captured a few shots
it's a nice view
lilah's outfit rocks
we walked to the city centre to pick up daddy at work
and this is what lilah wore
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