4 years old

oh lovely lilah, it is pretty remarkable that you are four years old today

though sometimes i think you're 4 going on 15

(and i'm not the only one)

but big girls who are 15 don't want their mums and dads to read them 

bedtime stories

and are not want to cry when the big light is put out

and that's when i am reminded that you are still 

a wee thing

and you still need me,

and i still need you

so even though you're now 4 going on 5

and next year you'll be 5 going on 6

let's not rush the whole thing too fast

you'll be Big soon enough

Happy Birthday

i love you

mummy